This is a story that I've tried to write satisfactorily for several years now, but each effort proved resoundingly unsuccessful. I never felt that it was properly narrated, and the strong knowingness that I had not adequately understood the message hung heavily over me. Oh, but as you will soon see, the superficial meaning of it is pretty obvious ~ it's just that the actual meaning wasn't clear to me.
Until recently. That's after I wrote "Integration". Almost as soon as I had completed writing that post, my mind pulled in the memory of an experience that had previously eluded comprehension at a deeper level. As the event replayed in my mind ~ still as crystal clear as ever ~ I finally got it. I will now do my best to tell the tale.
The Scene
Many years ago, out of nowhere came a vision. It was a scene that unfolded mentally ~ it was so vivid and intense that the memory of what I saw stayed with me ever since. The sheer force of the scene left me with no doubt that it was a real experience, one that took place so long ago that to qualify "when" proves impossible. The only way I can place it in a context of Time is to say....when one of the first Falls occurred.
It is all dazzling, blinding Light everywhere. It is in what I would call "Space", but also a realm of Light, pure Crystal Light. There were many Beings, all of whom were in physical form, but only just. Ethereal, fluid, but with some form. No craft of any kind, just Beings with the ability to move without a space vessel. I saw it from the filter of the Being closest to my mental screen ~ there was a lot of activity going on, and it was obvious that some sort of battle or chase-and-capture sequence was occurring.
Although the scene lasted but mere seconds, the aftermath was something else. It took me a long, long while to recover from the vision. There were so many emotions running through me, all of which contributed to the jarring impact of the vision.
I knew it was some sort of battle of Light vs Dark, and that it took place during one of the first Falls very early on during the time of Creation in this part of the Cosmos. I was shocked and shaken from the vision. This was in contrast to the lack of emotion in the Being through whom I was a witness. There was no fear, no anger, no hatred. No apparent emotion in the midst of what looked to me like a battlefield. The overriding objective that I got was, "This is a mission and I'm carrying it out." And yet, this isn't exactly an accurate description either ~ in the absence of what I consider emotion, there was something else.... Compassion.
The Analogy
Although it was apparent that I was witnessing some sort of battle, I also knew that it was an incomplete and superficial comprehension of the Bigger Picture. As I'm a great fan of the Bigger Picture, I thought it was quite a cruel joke to play on me as my initial understanding did not expand much further from there.
Well, it's taken many years, and at long last I see the Bigger Picture. So this is really like a Part 2 to my Integration post (and that's what I will title this post, too). While the surface interpretation is that of Light vs Dark, I will use an analogy to elaborate the core of the vision. Don't worry, it's a pretty straightforward one 😁
Imagine a Creator Being having twins called Awena and Ayani. As Creator Beings themselves, the twins live in Paradise and spend much of their time learning, playing and building little worlds of their own. Over time, Awena started to build bigger worlds with minute deviations from the established guidelines of Creation 101. Soon, the creations started to fill Paradise and Awena wandered further and further into the Outer Realms, building more worlds with increasing deviations, each time forgetting a bit more about Home and becoming a bit more disconnected with Parent. Awena started entertaining and believing growing thoughts about becoming an even better Creator Being than Parent, and continued straying and building and forgetting and disconnecting ~ grotesque characteristics far removed from Creator Guidelines started to appear in Awena's creations. At this point, Parent tasked Ayani to set out and bring Awena Home.
Which Ayani did.
This is the gist of the vision's Bigger Picture. It's not a battle of Light vs Dark ~ it is a Recover and Return of the Beings that had strayed, having forgotten and/or disconnected from Home. Parent does not disown Awena for the miscreations, Awena is still Parent's Child. Both Awena and Ayani originate from Parent, both are Creator Beings of Light even if one of them had chosen to dim the Inner Light thereby inducing a state of darkness.
The Cycles of Fall
This pattern of behaviour repeated itself time and time again over the Cosmic Ages. Each over-straying led to faults in the fabric of Creation, and each time rescue missions will be mounted. However, a growing issue was already developing at the same time ~ falls in frequency increased with each disconnect episode. As these cycles played out, the miscreations became denser and the two "sides" fell in tandem and became more polarised. Over Time, no one returned Home as Home was forgotten. Eventually, the result is the continuing saga of Light vs Dark.
Both fell in Consciousness. Both had degrees of disconnect. Both had levels of forgetting. The one thing that kept both going was the momentum of the eternal battle of Light and Dark, with each side believing the answer was annihilation of the other.
Today, we still carry the genetic and karmic coding of this eternal battle in its various forms, not just Light/Dark. The need to get rid of opposition, to make the other wrong so we can be right, taking sides, to make exclusivity socially acceptable, to constantly have an enemy in some form so that the fighting continues. This is our polarised mindset in action.
The Deeper Understanding
A pertinent point I would like to highlight from the vision is that ALL Beings there look similar ~ they all had the appearance of Ethereal Beings of Light. It wasn't possible to tell just from looks who was doing the rescuing and who was being rescued. No Being looked like some monstrous beast bent on wreaking hell.
(It is regrettable that many still believe that once we ascend to 5D, it will be free from darkness, choosing to forget that the First Fall involved Angelic/Light Beings and thereafter descending downwards with each successive fall. It was this same choosing-to-forget misguidance that resulted in my taking a long time to get over the sight of great Angelic/Light Beings battling each other.)
I am reminded of the story of Gollum, who was actually a Hobbit named Smeagol. The most easy-going and genial race, Hobbits could hardly be thought of as dark or evil. And yet, as Smeagol forgot his True State he allowed himself to be seduced by the One Ring and be corrupted over time, eventually succumbing totally to the One Ring. However, even towards the end he was able to reach within and briefly remembered his inherent Light before again choosing to disconnect.
No matter the degree of Light or Dark we find ourselves in right now, we all came from Original Creation a long, long Cosmic Time ago through uncountable iterations of incarnations and across untold Multiverses. We have deviated so much from the beginning that we have lost the ability to recognise ourselves, let alone others.
As we know, Polarity is really the extreme ends of the same pole (as the term also suggests). It's the diverse states of Consciousness that have strayed too far from the centre, and have become imbalanced. And yet, in that same state of imbalance, each tries to achieve balance by cross-weighing against the other. To maintain that unnatural balance, each must stay at their extreme position or risk jeopardy. If one moves towards the centre, both become unsteady and under threat of being thrown off. So the precarious unnatural balance is preserved through sustaining each of their respective stance on polarity.
Amidst the current chaos of the global control agenda through health,
the stark reality of how Polarity rears its frightful and fearful state
has never been more evident. We have been terrified out of our wits,
literally, and conditioned to turn against each other against a backdrop
of exclusivity and deep distrust on both sides.
Annihilate them before they annihilate us.
The Pre-Requisite
As we make our way through the Ascension path increasingly dodging pitfalls and working around obstacles, it can sometimes seem like a dense dark fog has formed at the horizon, drastically reducing visibility to a mere couple of metres ahead. However, the call to return Home is in no way subdued, and that is what we must heed as we focus our attention on our destination. This orientation will also help us to hold, as much as possible, the intention to remember our Original Creation and our ultimate trek back to our Wholeness.
Integration of our inner polarities allows us to see, acknowledge and accept the Divine Consciousness in ALL, despite appearances and behaviour to the contrary. Unless we integrate our own polarities, we will see "the others" as people to battle against, subdue, punish, dismiss or deny. We will still foster the energy of separation in some sense. As long as our mindset harbours any thought of separation, our Ascension progress will be impacted in some way, along the way. At some level of Ascension, the separation mindset will become a block towards further progress. All polarity must be integrated before we are able to reach Home.
(Granted, some controlling entities have very little to none of this resonance left, but that is an entirely different topic altogether.)
Integration allows for a new solution that may have never been considered before. The way forward isn't always a compromise from both sides as this solution can be fragile and fraught with dissatisfaction. Again, as I said before in Part 1, I have no idea how this looks like. All I know and believe in for now is that Inner Integration will pave the way.
I've written a whole bunch of words and gone on a tangent that was not expected 😁 I've also realised that this was something quite challenging for me to put into words as I am mindful of the two driving forces playing out right now and their respective calls ~ one for increasing separation, and the other for Unity Consciousness. This call of mine for Integration very likely will not sit well with either "side". At any rate, the main intention of this post is Inner Integration so this is the reminder with which I will leave you to consider.
"Namaste" was never meant to be conditional.
Loving Blessings to All! 💛💙💚
PS. The Tolkien references (LOTR & Silmarillion) were not part of the original intention....They just happened as I was writing....
